A Museum Of Unarticulated Thoughts And Monologues

  Choices are a funny thing. An old, familiar road feels monotonous because it limits our opportunities. A new one seems intimidating because we don’t know where it will take us. Yet, a road is a road and if it remains untraveled, its mysteries will remain oblivious.   “Sometimes, unexpected turns lead to the most incredible places.” Whether things end up well or not, everything slowly fades away. In those fading moments, we want to believe that everything was destined and that there was nothing we could’ve done differently. But that’s simply our attempt at self-persuasion. We are guilty of continuing down the same, unfulfilling road, knowing that it doesn’t take us to the life we want to live. We shouldn’t justify our lack of choice for there is always a choice; we just don’t dare to take it. We are runners. We run away from our problems, live in denial and play the blame game. But we’re also fighters. We eventually come to face to face with our problems and fight them, ...

    “Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. What do we do? We swim, swim. When life gets you down, do you wanna know what you’ve gotta do? Just keep swimming!”      Tulisan ini memang ditulis saat hati sedang mellow-mellownya, sampai-sampai menonton film kartun ' Finding Dory '-pun diresapi, direnungi, dijadikan refleksi sebegitu jauh.       Akhirnya aku menemukan banyak kesamaanku dengan Dory, ikan biru pelupa di serial Film Nemo, selain dalam hal short-term-memory-nya.  Aku adalah manusia yang masih suka bingung, kadang kala mengambil keputusan tanpa pertimbangan, tapi terkadang juga terlalu lama mempertimbangkan sampai tidak segera diputuskan, bisa tiba-tiba sedih maupun tiba-tiba bahagia,  semangat yang naik dan turun, mood yang bisa berubah drastis dalam hitungan jam, dan sialnya punya banyak  kekurangan   sana-sini. Just like Dory . Awalnya  aku kewalahan. Aku melunturkan percaya atas dirik...